i think when times taken over
i bid farewell to those ive loved
and enter a new lifestyle where feelings are never concerned
adaption is the key to success.
no really, is it?

all but just a dream
you care only about your life now
i dont seem to be a part of you like before
tell me im more to that
i dont feel the connection and spark we had before
maybe things have revolved round and changed
but love was never that.
maybe yours is, but mine never
im estatic to have alloysius lai as a best friend
cos no matter when im sad depressed elated inpain
he is always there.
hmmm, guess thats why he is noted as a best friend<3

ohhh!
i hate this pain.
tell me i need some painkillers.
I NEED MIRACLES.
i totally cant study in this condition.
it'll just make me cry at the thought of it.
argh
i hate lifee.
its so dead-ish
like what jo mentioned in her blog,
its so true you just had to agree
( though i know half the time you shouldnt ) hahah, i keed.
studies really do occupy half your life?
lets all do mathematics and calculate now.

):

oh having an upset tummy isnt the slightest bit nice.
after drill comp, i intend to stay in the hospital for 1/2 nights.
depends on what the doctor say.

okay i dont even have the energy to type now.
wish me all the best in the parade field. yup.
oh last night was simply touching.

i just wanna say a big thank you to

steph, shuen, prilla, teewhy, jo, do, squeak, shawna, rachel how
caroline, sam, leti, jemma, andre, aaron, charlie, ameer, eunice, kelly,
zhen, emma, alloy and many others

for the calls
for the smses
and for the love. HAHAHA(:

okay just telling you guys, IM FINE.
thank you.
my stomach is killing me. better go get some rest now.

bye!

you know what?
you dont have to utter a word,
i'll just take it as you dont care no more.
baby, kiss me goodbye

the start of something is always more than that.
but at the end, its nothing but sorrows.

it ends tonight.

i feel like a fool, i feel like ive been betrayed.
but thankfully for steph and many others,
i'll brave this like its nothing.
i cant do this, but i'll try.


wowmamakohkohpantiesfleefriedcharkwayteow!
i ate 4 tubs of ice cream and am craving for more.
i think my mum knows im upset. sigh):

love is a ghost encounter. i remember that.

god bless you esther<3
and great job pioneers.love!

THERE KELLY.
as promised, i shall blogg about today.
woke up, went to schh.
then when i arriived, they said they were going for lunch.
sooo off i went.
lunched-.-
the food took way bloody long
kelly was pissed i swear she wasss): AHAH.
but she still laughed at some of our retarded chats.
:D yeah nava, NONSENSE:D AHAHAHA

then after that, we took many many pictures<3
basically, it was camwhoring.
but hey, FUN OKAY:D
sauyeee and kelly kow, send me pictures:D LOVE YA ALL.
seniors left and pioneers stayed on to pay the bills.
it was sooo long before food, soup and drinks came.
like took 40 mins for a cup of coke to arrive?
and an extra 1 hour for soup?
and uhh, the food seems to not come all the wayy.

i was starvinggg):

but thankfully for SMALL kelly, rachel, sau, ruth and angeline,
ive got pizzas to keep me alive.
ohh joy gave me some too, anddd charlotte too!
SO SWEET:D I LOVE YOU! and thankewwww:D
then chicken ole came and kelly's traditional pasta. like WTH RIGHT? AHAH
but it was all yummy.
kelly! WE SHOULD GO DOWN TO IKEA FOR MEATBALLS<3
gringrin.
ANYHOWS, PAYED A 145.80 bill.
then off we went.
this was THE CONVERSATION!

ANGIE: ehhh, lets take cab lahh! we're late late late.
kelly: OMG LAH! queue so long!
RACHEL HOW: aiyohhyohh, dont wait in the taxi stand for taxi lah!
ANGIE AND KELLY: THEN WHERE YOU WANT TO HAIL A CAB?! OMGOMGOMG.
rachel how: uhhh, down the road? HAHAHAHAHAHA

OMG LAH.
seriously, where can you get a cab? in the taxi stand right?
smart rachel how made us run here and there and in the end, we walked back.
the last part, kelly tickled me all the way up the hill.
wow thanks...

then.
drill-ded.
piano-ded.
):


BYE!

kiss me goodbye sweet soul
i beg to let me leave
i cant take this torture further
cos its killing my inner soul
within me, theres someone screaming to get out
of this pain and torture i feel so greatly.

EH if you want my xanga bloog, as me for it.
byebye!:D

<3

you know just today
i thought through hard and something within pricked me
so painful it hurts till i teared.
i was smsing dixon and i asked him

" if i ever drift away from you all, just for studies sake, to go to that jc
that ive always wanted, would you mind? would things still go the same?"

and he replied
(not exactly the same, but i get it somewhere)

" we will stay best friends forever more.. till the end, the happiness and glee
you will ever recieve would be eternal blessing! wouldnt you want that angela teo?
study hard and im going to motivate youu! though im a year younger, but in thinking
wise, im more matured:D somehow. maybe that explains why im in ri. haha!:D "

oh dixon, i cant express how much i got to thank you
you got me going
got me to know that i have to move along
and study so hard to get into rjc, i hope lah!
but if cant, ACJC it would bee:D
i really love you so much know best friend?
you're always so hyper so funny that it perks me up
even in moments of misery, you're here!
you're the best okay!! ahhah!
and jo, you know you're the first person whom i seek advice from
just cos youre so noble!

your reply so true it seems so admirable!

" if they are your friends, they will stick with you through thick and thin.
they would be able to understand what you're going through and wish the best
for you. you know that right? and im here for you always, just cos im your friend."

thanks dear.
alot. alot. alot.
i read those lines again and again, and tears rolled down those
sun glazed cheeks.
maybe im just emo today
maybe the next, im hyper
but these two messages got me going so strongly.

aaron, thanks for that phonecall.
while talking to you, it may not be so pleasant with those sniffings.
but i must say it made me feel so much lighter..
a sense of comfort overwhelms me. it meant so much
you know that right?

and i might simply stop blogging
and going out except for sch and all
cos i wanna focus
im determined.
so today, i am here writing this to actually write little notes to every precious one.
to tell them, they mean so much.
and they're not forgotten
even in the midst of o lvls, they're still there, stained in this heart of mine
* even detergent cant wash it away xD
you know what im getting at.

steph!
you know something? how i wish you were with me in sec 4. we could go through this pain and torture together but i cant be so selfish as to make choices for you that may be a wrong one! yup so i respect whatever you made. and i love you for that. really i do. and from today, the chances of me meeting up with you and having long conversations maybe slim but please, dont let this deter our friendship but set this as a challenge for us both. score well, work well and we'll meet in the end soon.. im sure.. 7 years of friendship aint easy to come by, im glad we brought it to life even after PSLE(: we can do it again dear. trust me, i'll never forget you. and for now, im going to apologise for any neglect im gonna give you. baby, you're still stuck in my mind and heart even when i studyy. cos you're the sweetest soul that ever came. love you<3

joanne!
you're in my class. and we've talked almost every hour. just not after sch. but i must say things have changed. a hell lot. but no matter what, you're always my best friend. in and out of sch. we know this year is major and i dont mind the rejection you gave me earlier. perfectly understand, we both are determined yeahh, hence the result of this. but dear, i'll let you know now that, you mean so much more than mere paper and pen. i cant type this out but simply express three words that is so cliche but so important. i love you!

squeak.
i got to know you since sec 3? ahha. & we've been so close ever since. yeah, the bitch i used to think of you seems to vanish ahh? HAHAHA(: i keed lahh. anyhuus, thanks for putting up with my nonsense and random screams! :D i know its like a killer to sit next to me cos of my nonstop rattling mouth but i know you just cant get sick of my oh so marvellous voice, can you? AHHA:D i love you squeak, we study and be nerds okayy?! love you darling.

emmma.
you'll always be that old naggy grandmama. i love you forever more. sorry i cant get those dates with you going cos of my screwed up schedule. i'll decide once i can organise things out kay? you're so cool, i wanna make you mine. AHHA:D

kelly.
omg. you are seriously the coolest lahh. when people turn their backs on me, you stood by next to me and detested everyone who spoke ill of me. i love you tons hon. and you know that! haha, thanks for the nasty bitching sessions we have together. and those food we rush to eat and yeahh dear, NO DIETS(: haha. carb carbs here we comeee. we love them, dont we?! you're so smart, i cant stand it! haha:D

zhen!
heh heh, you're always my midnight chat partner lah i swear.but you're always so cool yo! you tried so many things ive never did before and am still so innocent! maybe in appearance wise only right? AHAHA HINTS. but really you were always there when im down, and i hope i did too for you! i love you okayy! lets make this friendship or relationship last yeahh? HAHAHA(: the chemistry, oh so strong. IONIC BONDS. yeahh only we understand that. ONLY WE DO. yeahh:D

teewhy.
you disgusting sickening bimbo. i cant stand you. so smart. but nevertheless, you're one cool kiddo. i love you my dear gb pal. yeah we'll go out soon. the crazy shoppings we had in sec2s! its been long, really long! love love. oh ohh, but shopping must wait, o's first! haha!

mel!
haha, you nasty woman, so skinny still keep insisting your fat. my ass lah. but i love you still, study hard and im sorry for not going for cell, you know why:D yeahh thanks for those emo walks down the lane... of maple woods. HAHAHA:D pass those bangalahs:D yeah yeahh. in the rain, its too cool(: I LOVE YOU!

it seems like the same phrases every now and then
the never ending i love yous
but really, spread the love!

elias!!!
you're away in china! rahh. but have fun. just wanna say thanks for always giving me those late night calls and sacrificing those precious sleep you need eh? wink. haha:D but thanks lah really. you always seem to be able to make so much sense i cant out talk you. haha:D i just wish we would be strong and carry on:D yeahh! study hard anddd love you plentyyy!!somethings special is happening on wed, you know what?! i know what!<333

dixon!
ive said it all, in the above. lets just say you'll always be that funny crazyy retarded spasticated awesome best friend. i never thought you would be this close to me till now. :D but im glad you are. really! you bring so much joy in my life ! yeah i know we be cool! haha. laughter joy and everything nice, these are the perfect ingredients to make friendship bonds oh so strong. HAHA(: yeahh dick the son. go be the man!:D HAHA i keed i keedddd! :) you know i am, right?<3

aaron:
ahahah:D my best buddy! you're too cool. i had fun studying with you and all. apple pie strawberry sundae. yeahh those food cravings we have.. weird isnt it? but hey, satisfying to those grumbling tummies. i really want to thank you for every single thing you appeared to do in my life. haha, yeah orchids for example. how lovely. yeah only me shu and you would know. secret secret:D hahaha! thanks for that immediate reaction upon hearing im sad(: thanks thanks thanks!!!<3

joel:
sexy australia friend! just wanna sayy, im dying to see you soon! i have so much to tell you! hahaha(: yeahh, you gay ness. i really miss those talks to have and laughter in macs! come back soon okayy? by that time you actually do, i'll be done with o's mind you, no need to remind me about it. im dying! ahha(: i know you feel the hurt.:D HAHAHA

alimi!
hahaha:D i only knew you really really well last year, but you brought so much joy into my life. haha:D thanks dood, i'll always remember you as that dixon pal. hahaha:D funny fellow, yeahh nasty eye stares! stare stare stare* i knew i could do way better than you can!:D

ggeraldd!
DADDYYY! PIMP DAD:)

alloy:D:D:D
haha, best friend, i never knew you could be emo like me till sat! but i really hope nothing would ever affect your liveliness that lives in you ever again okayy? best friend ahhhh! HAHAHA LISTEN TO YOUR MOTHER AND START STUDYING. stop freezing your ass off when youre drenched in a 16 degrees air conditioned place. you know what im getting at. admin freak:D HAHAHAHA. thanks for sat, you made it a blast:D ha. sweat pocari the best choice!!!

brandon koh!
ha, so called brother. doesnt even look like me. what a weird combi. but hey, thanks for everything! i hope you've cheered up after that long while:D hahaha! LOVE YOU BROTHER!!!

brandon yap:
hey twin! hahaha:D somehow we got related.. well pretty weird. well, basketball vice cap. haha HMM, you deserve it more than anyone ive known. so much better than ahem pimple ahem:D haha(: you know who im getting at. you know it. haha! thanks for the laughter you gave me when im waiting for your fellow basketball senior's call. thanks thanks thanks! you're the bestt! :D you dont worry too much about that girl too.
nasty twin.so vexed about wanting a girl ehh? ahahaha:D i keed.

lennie!
you're just some annoying hippo but yet ever so sweet. hahaha! thanks for catching spongebob with me last times. those were the best!!!:):):)

ping!
hahaha:D you are always readily available for mee. i just dont know how to thank you:D hahaha! but thanks lahh, study hard okayy!we can do this!!!:D whee ness. i'll give you that outing we've always needed one day! RELALY IT'LL WORK OUT !HAHAHAHA:D

there there, finally.
in no chronological answer, ive got his all done out.
i hope everyone who reads this
get to feel abit of touched? is that the word?
hmm, yeahh hope so.

for now, hibernation period till end of the year.
i try i try(:

\ D i X o N / says:
hahah i got temperature moderator
♥ lobsters are cool says:
haha
♥ lobsters are cool says:
OMG LAH
♥ lobsters are cool says:
you're damn retardeddd
♥ lobsters are cool says:
TEMPERATURE MODERATOR
♥ lobsters are cool says:
so you go antartica
♥ lobsters are cool says:
moderate till 100 degrees
♥ lobsters are cool says:
burn the ice
♥ lobsters are cool says:
awesome
\ D i X o N / says:
depends on my mood
\ D i X o N / says:
if i huo mao san zhang then got volcano

dixon, seriously,
kill yourself?!

i had fun yesterday
new bonds and connections were made.
and im really so darn glad.
a dayy which i could relieve myself from stresss

the ending of yesterday wasnt all that pleasant
it was heart wrenching and all.
but i was alright.
just to let you all know, im fine.
thanks for those who specially called up to comfort me
smses which were oh so sweet
i love ya all.
really, i do.

and from today,
i really really am going to mug.
sighh, i'll figure a way out to keep myself focused.
in order to use DSA, i guess i need to seriously buck up.
):
pull up my socks, thats the way to go.
be the nerds of mgs... :D i wish.
oh, and im lookin like a lobster now.
guuess thats something i wanted to achieve & i did.

on a side note to end it all,

alloy, thanks for being a cool best friend.
i never knew you could be emo. but you are.
but im ever so glad you're still my best friend and comforter.
i love you best friend! <3

steph too, thanks for everything
you made yesterday simply the best
without you, i'll feel oh so out-of-place.
oh share the love hur! :D

GOODBYE MY LOVER.

jeremy teo

you enjoy yourself over in chinaland.
&& i overslept, cos its all your fault.
and caught a terrible nasty flu..
cos of YOU.
yeahh youu.
the airport was too cold, a temperature of 37.8 degrees.
how wonderful to be in this state.

but im going to sch tomoroo!
sigh...


):

you lucky asssss get to go china!!

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oh god i totally need a haircut.
&& im going crazzyy thinking about what hair cut i should get.
zhen and sharon are going tomoro.
sigh-ness.

thanks sexxaazayy zhen for intro-ing me this place.
im lovin' it. ha:D

sweet child, i love you the most.
words cant describe my oh so wonderful love for you

kelly and i, decidedd something major today
we are going to __________________

thats for you to ( fill in the blank )
just like preschool,
ooh how exciting!

:D

pictures from ss.
please, do get them if you need them.
i posted it on my blog
so there.
hurhur.






as i did this project, i ponder over the amount of joy and satifaction i truly get. through this, i need someone to satisfy those cravings of having a baby. its not that i want them, its cos i cant resist a friggin baby! they are oh so cute! i guess i just gotta go bug my neighbours more to see that sweet child across. :) indeed so cute and pleasant, simply just wanna make THEM mine. haha:D

dont say anything or comment cos simply, you're just jealous!
that would always be my argueing statement& dont judge, i hate it when people do.
make me feel, insecure. ha

<3

the way you smile at me
so pleasant it makes me swell
this night i tangle close into your arms
to satisfy the cravings i have for you
gently tug me to bed and whisper " i love you"
we'll gradually fade into the night.

the arena, i saw myself laughing hysterically.
it was literally a drop dead scene!
no im keeding, its my real soul typing.
not the ghost, so no fear and tears:D
cos ANGIE LIVES ON. woohoo.

yeahh so i took hell long
just to edit these pictures.
yeahh CHINESE NEW YEAR.
THE PARTY, i organised okayy.
somehow:D illegal gathering.
shhhh(:


taupok

that ice cream was so mine
just that i got tired of eating.
HOHO

the food i ate
and i brought them all up
:D hahaha.
it was so good!!! I LOVE THOSE FOOD.

all for all

behind every pillow
you'll be my shield and comforter.

i love you threee!

it was so lame he banged.

he doesnt want his picture taken

HAHA, drunk dunk wunk.

happy great start 2007
glad you came that dayy xD

sending alloy off.

we are cool, as of this.

dont treat me like yao do

UHHH.
steph, happy its here?
one nasty images of me
credits to stephieepoo.

we are the typicals.

mirror images are cool


END.

START OF ANOTHER FEW DAYS!

in the bus.

haha, dixon:D
so hot eh

leadership conference.


today,
i ran 3.2 km.
lunched and returned home.
am watching me show.
so dont irritate me.

bye.

TAGBOARD REPLIES!
from schh. how cool!:D

ENDER!
hurhur, no wayy.. i still love my wuzun.
cos he is simply shuai dai le:D ha.
beat that!
and i love the show.
its too cool for school, seriously.

STEPH:
its on my blog i think. come on
why would i ignore your tags?
totally ridiculous,
stephieepooppppieeelalala.

JOANNE!
hahahahhaha..



NO WAY!

VAL!
im sure it was a blast hur.
nasty.
i really desperately wanted to go.
but damn those leadership conference. ARGH.
screw that thought of it.
POOF.

nanjie!
you take forever to tag.
wo ye ai niii:D
yeah and i love the show. haha.
so romantic.
stupid hannah who doesnt wanna enjoy.
hahahaha:D


okay, the library's freezing my asses off.
hence, imma take my leave.
sakae, sakae, you're so dear..
wont you be my valentine tonight.
HAHAHA:D

today's my stress freee dayy.
&& im lovin' it!
<3

TAGBOARD REPLIES!
from schh. how cool!:D

ENDER!
hurhur, no wayy.. i still love my wuzun.
cos he is simply shuai dai le:D ha.
beat that!
and i love the show.
its too cool for school, seriously.

STEPH:
its on my blog i think. come on
why would i ignore your tags?
totally ridiculous,
stephieepooppppieeelalala.

JOANNE!
hahahahhaha..



NO WAY!

VAL!
im sure it was a blast hur.
nasty.
i really desperately wanted to go.
but damn those leadership conference. ARGH.
screw that thought of it.
POOF.

nanjie!
you take forever to tag.
wo ye ai niii:D
yeah and i love the show. haha.
so romantic.
stupid hannah who doesnt wanna enjoy.
hahahaha:D


okay, the library's freezing my asses off.
hence, imma take my leave.
sakae, sakae, you're so dear..
wont you be my valentine tonight.
HAHAHA:D

today's my stress freee dayy.
&& im lovin' it!
<3

today was dreary.
but thanks to:
KELLY!, sam, esther, mak,
teewhy, spaceyy!, melissa,
heidi, nava, amelia, leti and doreen,
things went aiight.
and i haadd fun.
with DRAGON BALLZZZEEE with heidi.
:D heh.
and when teewhy sent me pics, i'll upload them.
i swear i love the sec 4s.
they are oh so, fantastic:D

though they made things alot more fun,
i still fell asleeep during some talks.
thanks esther for slapping me!:D
ha. oh oh, and i love supper.
GOSSIPS:D yeahh about me, thanks guys.
haha and thanks teewhy for the share of apple crumble.
heh heh! anddd, things been going like a roller coaster.
i really hope monday would be cool.
sakae, sakae, satisfy those cravings!(:

oh and teeewhy, STACEY AND I are going shopping.
teewhy, you're oh so cool, you have that same taste as i do.
but nonetheless, you're still abimbo in my eyes:D ha.
:)
dont live in denial dear:D i keed i keed.
so anyhuus, we are going to have dressing date.
how cool, and sam and letty are going alone.
cos we didnt invite them along. haha! they loners.
nahh, cos too big a group would cause too much hindrance
hence that though of a small three-some group.
i cant wait, like totally.

LEADERSHIP CONFERENCE FROM 7.30am-9pm.
it was killer alright, no drinks no nothing.
getting scolded for shyte ass nothing.
WOW, what a great thing to pass life.
ha.
i could use this time wisely to actually study...
actually, like i would?! HAHA.

okay.
TAGBOARD REPLIES:D

ELIAS:
yeahh i do:D haha.
&& i told you about him on the phone
REMEMBER?! HAHA:D

ABRAHAM:
if you do know, a person livin in the same area as mine
would have the same ip add. hahaha
dumb hamtaro.
and why the hell would i wanna know you AHEM size?!
kinda gross aint it.
anons, grosss-ish! they are hitting on you.
freak show.

gerald:
omgomg, FOB! did you go?
i couldnt make it. damng!
yeahh monday, our sushi dateee<3

ANGELINE:
HE IS MINE:D
stay away cos i'll bite. haha:D

shuen:
uhhh, i didnt know you were into this sort of things
but yeah, he is awesome

sam:
sure:D

okay, thats all.
night.
im tired.
going to do some tys MULTIPLE CHOICE questions and head to bed.
lala land, say your greetings to the queen of cools.

<3

IM GLUED TO THIS SHOW.
its simply too awesome.
I LOVE I LOVE<3
YEAHH HE IS INDEED AWESOME
MY LOVER, MY BABY! haha.
WUZHUN, WO AI NI:D

but DAMN, HE IS HELL OLD. ):
he'll get wrinkles before me. nasty.
and i thought i was old. HOHOHO.
but its okay, i still love him all the same
too charming to resist.
TRIPLE LOVES.<3<3<3
well,
steph thinks he is adorable.
teewhy loves him
jo adores him.

i'll say, he is relatively fine.


I STILL LOVE MY WUZHUN BEST<3

and i love my QUARTERS.
thanks guys for always being with me through it all.
though eunice is simply EXTRA.
ha, im keeding dear!
you know i love you, miss ego award winner!
heh.

QUARTER FIRST: KELLY KOW
QUARTER SECOND: LYDIA LOW
QUARTER THIRD: EUNICE LAU
QUARTER FOURTH: ANGELA TEO.

im youngest, hence the fourth one. damn.
THANKS! haha, but its okay.
quarterr 4th sounds cute either way:D
together we form KLEA. haha. thats the brand, aint it?

okay, shall go sleep.
i have leadership conference tomoro.
from 7.45am.-8.45pm.

how GREAT):
awesome hur. I HATE IT! at least i have spacy with me.
and teewhy and kelly...
but in different grooups tho.
DAMN.
oh and doreen, ahhaha:D RETARDED AUTISTIC.
:D

kay loves.

TAGBOARD REPLIES:D
as requested from elias, i shouldn't flame my own tagboard,
hence a result in THIS.
:D

STEPH!
WOW STEPH. FINALLY HUR! after
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10:D im sure you missed those posts i make.
nastyyy:) i love you nincompoopp.

SAM*
HAHAHA:D yeahh dear.
i'll go visit it soon, and make those stocks.
:D im sure those products are going fast HUR):
<3

ABRAHAM!
heyhey YOU.
its cool okayy. HAMTARO'S CUTE!
its just your name:D enjoy this name while you can!
heh heh. yeahhyeahh, HELLO:D
crazyy fanatic whose oh so quiet in person* shrugs*

VAL:D
NOW WHAT DRIVES YOU SO HIGH HUR?!
ahha. you crazy banana.
yellow banana:D i guess im high too.
it must be the rain.
oh wait, changes gear to EMO mood. hahaha.
i keed i keed.

FATSHITDUDE!
heyy, i really think you like calling yourself that eh.
haha. well, so be it then:D
then yeah you're a loser.
it seems like whenever you call me, i'll be ready to sleep!
ha. so loser:D LOSER ZAP:D TEEEEEE.

ELIAS!!
yeahh. thanks:D uhhh.
you're such a spelling freak! hoho.
go be a english teacher.
i think your students would definitely HATE you:D ha.
i keed i keed

ENDER!
THOU SHALL NOT BE MEAN!
lucky you. HOLIDAY TODAY): POONEESSS.


THERE WE GO.